I am sorry that it has been such a while since my last post. I was packing for our little car trip with 4 kids and 2 adults and 1 dog. The car ride by itself was 2 days one way. Then we were scheduled to stay at my parent's home for 2 weeks and then start back. About 2 weeks before the trip, my husband and I found out that we are expecting baby #5! What a shocker for us to find that out! So with the nausea getting worse while we were visiting, I also had my first anxiety attack that lasted an hour in the middle of the night. That was not my idea of fun. So we cancelled the rest of our vacation and headed home to have my blood work done again. Come to find out, it was my thyroid that was out of whack. We've been back for about 2 weeks now and I am just now starting to get my body back in control somewhat. I still have to remind myself everyday that I am not in control. God is in control and I cannot be the one who has control.

I am looking through my homemaking books and finding inspiration and motivation around my home that will help get my heart and mind in the right place so that my body will eventually follow. I am enjoying going through my past issues of Country Living. That has to be my favorite magazine. I also enjoy MaryJane's Farm magazine. (Speaking of which, I need to renew my subscription.)

My little 2 year old is trying to potty train herself. I think its the cutest thing ever until she goes for the 3rd time in a row without breaks in between. I know I should just let her, but I get frustrated. My days are getting more demanding and my body isn't keeping up and it's getting to me. My baby-baby, who is almost 6 months now, is eating baby food and baby cereal along with her formula. She's requiring less naps during the day and more active time. But she has the widest smiles that light up her whole face. I just love it!

Before leaving on vacation, I was on a quest to have my house uncluttered and clean for our return. I was almost there. Our house has always been a cluttered home from day one. We have piles of clothes in a basket waiting to be folded here, a pile of papers, books, magazines on the floor next to the corner there. Its sad really. The dining room table is crowded with sewing machine, sewing boxes, material folded, coupon binder with coupons waiting to be clipped and filed into the binder. Get my picture here? Clutter everywhere. Now the corners and piles are only a few. I'm getting there until I hit my setback. Hang in there. God will provide exactly what I need. Right now it must be rest because that is all I can muster.